With the end of the year approaching I can’t help but reminisce on this past year. This year has been one of the hardest ones but my faith has been stretched as much as it has been built. I’ve learned to trust in God regardless of outcome.
I experienced a miscarriage after believing that our baby would go full term. I’ll never forget the night that it happened, I was laying in bed after speaking to my doctor just to monitor my bleeding and pain and all I wanted to do was to be in worship. I told Chris to turn on some worship music as we prayed and all I wanted to do was to get into the presence of God. I wasn’t upset at God at that moment; it was days, weeks, months after that I was and I really needed God to work with me because of fear and thoughts that this would happen again to me.
When it comes to battles in life I always fight them through prayer and praise. I always find a worship song that helps me through the season I’m going through and I put myself in a posture of praise, even if it doesn’t make sense. Many would agree that the moment of miscarrying would be an odd moment to be in worship but I knew I had to position my heart for everything that I was going to have to find freedom from.
“…to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness…”Isaiah 61:3 KJV
Putting on a garment of praise breaks the spirit of heaviness. You can experience hope and peace as you cry out to him. It’s through worship and prayer that we had peace about starting a family and I am now about to be 5 months pregnant! God has been so faithful and He has made everything beautiful in its time. Ecclesiastes 3:11 NIV
Earlier this month Pastor Brandon reminded us the thing about seasons are that they end. I love that reminder because if you’re currently going through the thick of an ugly season, have hope that the season will be over! Choose to put on a garment of praise and see the good even if it’s a stretch. God is shaping and molding you to become stronger in him and to trust him not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5
As Pastor Brandon said “When life is not so wonderful, remember the wonderful.” If God has pulled you out of the mess before know and trust that He will again! If you haven’t heard the message this past Sunday I encourage you to listen to the podcast! It will truly change your perspective on seasons in life.